Insomniac Faith (endless truth)

(For Cushla: Valentine’s Day 2009)

You are there

Of course you are there

Where else would you be

(would be your answer)

Where else but here

Heart knows

Head

Not so assured

It is an endless fascination

Skin like shot silk

Then

Light through yonder window breaks

Breaks up

Cracks up

There you are

I am here too

This is a mystery

This

Ambiguity

This

Whodunit

Or more like

This

How did it

But it is

There

And here

You there

Me here

Separated

(as always)

By

A soft and sighing child

Naked

Kicking like a foetus still

He is this trinity’s hub

He

Is

The

Issue

In and of himself

He is one

The one

One

Third

But

One

Alone

He is there

And you are there

You are beautiful

Soft

Delicate

Sleeping

You have plover’s eggs

Balanced on each breath

The feather of life

Levitating

Airborne

The

Rise and fall

Delay

(that lingering mortal tick)

Then

Rise and fall

Rise and fall

Rise and fall

Once more

I wait for the sneeze of life

Tihe Mauriora!

It does not come

Though

It does not come

Nor do the freckles

(remote controlled)

Dit dit dit dit dit

Work

The magic of beginnings

In this soundless

Aging

Panoramic

Place

I am

Softish

Irritable

Insomniac

Awake

(ever, ever)

But this is about you

That ordinary sun

Paralysed

In

Shafts of dust-laden light

Invades the space

Sandwiched

Between

God and you

Fusing

Connecting

Marrying

With the copper in your hair

You are alive in sleep

Radiant in that optimistic dawn

I

Cannot

(will not)

Wake you

The sun hesitates to leave

Risks

Breaking that tenet of time

That says

Move on, old sun

Lest you be caught in that boy’s bastard net

Move on

Sun

Hesitates

Wonders

Is it worth the wrath

Of this grey and Wall Street world

To stay one russet moment longer

One

Nanosecond

Conservative to the last

Sun tries hard

Bathes the room

In one last paragon of gold

Burnishes the auburn dawn with splendour

And

Leaves the day

Lit by your nobility

Lit by your love

Your trust

And

In your face rests honour, truth and loyalty

Reprise:

No sooner met but they looked;

No sooner looked but they loved;

No sooner loved but they sighed;

No sooner signed but they asked one another the reason;

No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy;

And in these degrees have they made a pair of stairs to marriage

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